I can’t believe the first year of the second decade of my life is about to be over. It seems like just yesterday that I was the 18 year old starting college. But the good news is that I’ll be home in NY to celebrate with my family (it’s tradition). But before I can get to Saturday, I have two tests on Friday. And then I fly from Atlanta to NY right after that. How much does THAT schedule suck? I hate summer school. I really do. Anyway, back to me…I turn 21 on Saturday…B-DAY!

This is my blog’s third week online (I’m pretty sure it’s third) and I’m just fascinated by all of the people that have been visiting from around the world. It is so exciting to look at the picture below and see more and more people visiting everyday. Seriously, from the bottom of my heart, thank you so much for visiting my tiny corner of the internet. I hope I can keep giving you exactly what you’re looking for. I would love to hear from all of you (adnan@adnanrashid.com), even if it’s just a hello! Thanks again

My parents just bought me something really exciting and all I can think about is how lucky I am. I understand that not everyone is able to have the same things I have in life. No one chooses the life they are born into and I am one of those lucky people who has been given everything they have ever asked for (because of a father who sacrificed so much just so his children could see the life he never did growing up). What’s my point? My point is that I understand the injustices, even if someone’s hard work had a lot to do with it. I understand just how lucky I am. I just want people to know that I’m not like many others that are also  privileged like me. I really do care about people and whenever I do something good for myself, I try to do good by someone else, every single day. I share things because I am excited and happy about them and never because I want to make someone feel bad (and there are a lot of people like that out there). Even if I do make others feel bad, that is never my intention. I don’t think being spoiled makes me a bad person. Being a bad person is what makes you a bad person. I say “thank you” for everything I have by trying to be the best most caring individual I can be. I say “thank you” by trying to be a good person. I say “thank you” by trying to not act like your typical snobbish spoiled brat. I say “trying” because I know I’m not perfect and that I have a lot of work to do.

My mom and dad just bought me a front row ringside ticket to Britney Spears‘ opening show in New Orleans for Tuesday, even though I already have great seats for Thursday’s show. If you’ve been following this blog, then you must know all the things running through my mind, how excited I must be to be able to see one of my favorite artists on the opening night of her brand new tour (!!!!). But what you probably didn’t know until now is…that a part of me also feels guilty.

I need to say one more thing. If you are jealous of me, you shouldn’t be and I wish you wouldn’t be. Jealousy is dangerous. And all I want is just to be happy.

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And they say she’s so lucky
She’s a star
But she cry, cry, cries in the lonely heart
Thinking if there’s nothing missing in my life
Then why do these tears come at night?

Britney Spears - Lucky

I want to share a couple of things in my room with you. Just something from me to you. Enjoy.

I really love my Gossip Girl poster. I don’t know what I can say about it…it speaks for itself. Oh and just so you know, this poster used to belong on the side of a bus… I bought it on eBay… Wait, did I really do that? Yes.

This is a collage that one of my best friends (shout out to BFFAB, you know who you are) made for me. If I had to choose a poster to describe myself, this would be it. It is the best present I have ever been given. I don’t think she knows that yet.

Oh shit, it’s me. I thought this was a sexy picture of me, but now that I look at it…no, I’m not about to kill you. Someone needs to shave…but it’s going to be too hard so I’ll save it for when I’m desperate.

Yeah, just some things in my room.

If you’re confused, read the 4 posts before this one first. Adnan is definitely a Carrie Underwood fan. Did I just go third person on you? I told myself I wouldn’t do that…but I like it. Oh well. Anyway, “That’s Where It Is” is one of my favorite songs ever not just because it’s so beautiful and lyrically sound, but also because it got me through a really hard time in my life. I’ll go into one of the aspects of that time now. By the way, what you may consider “personal” is not personal for me. The things I don’t share on this blog are what’s really personal (only a few things there).

December 2005. I had set my heart on going to NYU for college, but I didn’t get in. You know what’s funny? The complete change in how I felt then and how I feel now. Back then it felt like my entire life was over. But today? Today I feel like not getting into NYU was one of the best things that could have ever happened to me. Ever. Ever. Basically the last 6 months of 2005 were probably the worst and scariest of my life and not getting into NYU was like the cherry on top of a disastrous sundae. I’m thankful to God and my family for helping me come a very long way since 2005. I was 17 then, I’m 20 now. What a difference a few years can make. I love blessings in disguise. Love them. I’m definitely crying a little right now (happy tears).

Thanks Carrie Underwood for such an amazing song. Definitely a favorite. Oh and not all of my favorites are this special…but do you see the power of music and why I love it so much?

P.S. My cheeks are just rosy and I’m definitely not wearing makeup. I bring this up because it’s been asked before. Too many times before. Sigh and lol